Last weeks poetry

Love is forever
You just don't stop loving someone
It hurts so bad
To be this sad all the time
I could cry rivers
But that doesn't change anything
I am nothing
I am scum
I am lower then dirt
No wonder
You don't even care
No one ever does
No one ever did
I don't fit in
I don't exist in your world
I never did

I am forgotten
I had no worth
My life has no meaning
My tears are blood on the frozen ice
It is all dark and pain within me
My tormented soul cry of remorse
My aching dying heart weeps of the pain
I lost you
You who were the sun life and love
You were my everything
But I was nothing but a toy or even that for you.
It is so hard to accept that I meant so little
I did everything for you
But gained nothing in return
I am dead inside

I am just stupid
A fool to have thought I ever meant anything to anyone.
I don't get to be happy feel love
Achive success
It is so much which is against me
No hope no light no love no happiness
For eternities to come.

Lost and alone I will always be.
I feel so empty
I have nothing left to give
They took everything
Drained me then left me here in this dark work. It is like a hell dimension
Perhaps I am just obsessed with my series
Over identify with some characters
It opens myself to my inner pain and suffering

There is no prince coming for me
No shining knight on the white horse
No savior
I am trapped here in my own
Eternal pain misery
No one is coming for me
I am left here stranded
Dying
I slit my wrists
Blood pouring everywhere
Soul flys up ready to leave
The still body
But it's not my time yet
The soul is pushed back into the body
No one knows of my misery
No one understands the pain
No one understands the emptiness
Within me

They say my poetry is the trashy
They say my poems depress them
But what do they know
About my pain
About suffering misery
Not everyone is born in the sun
Some of us yearn for the sun the light
But unable to get there
Cause something is always dragging
Us down

The others the lucky ones
They don't care
They betray an let you down
Lie and hurt you
Take you for granted
Ignore you until they need you

But don't ever hurt back
Don't ever defend yourself
Treat others as they treat you
Cause then you are the bad guy

I am an awful person cause I envy
Others I want happiness luck joy love and success as they have
It is very unfair
I won't get it ever
I am happy for others joy success love and happiness their luck
But I just wish got some as well
It is painful to smile and be happy for others I know it's awful of me
I just don't care anymore
I have nothing more to loose
It feels so bad